Going Through Changes Lyrics -Eminem
In this very emotional song "Going Through Changes" of Recovery, Eminem describes overeating, daytime napping, pill addiction, and sorrow at the loss of his childhood friend Proof, who was shot outside a club in April of 2006. He ends with a note of love and empathy for his ex-wife Kim.| Song Name : | Going Through Changes |
| Album / Movie : | Recovery |
| Singer : | Eminem |
| Music Label : | Aftermath Entertainment, Shady Records, and Interscope Records |
| Cast : | Eminem |
I’m going through changesI’m going through changes
Lately, I really feel like I’m rolling Delph for like PhillyFeel like I’m losing control of myself, I sincerelyApologize if all that I sound like, is I’m complainingBut life keeps on complicating and I’m debatingOn leaving this world, this evening, even my girlsCan see I’m grievin’, I try and hide itBut I can’t, why do I act like I’m all high and mightyWhen inside, I’m dying, I am finally realizing I need helpI can’t do it by myself
Too weak, two weeks I’ve been having ups and downsGoing through peaks and valleys, dilly dallyingAround with the idea of ending the shit right hereI’m hatin’ my reflection, I walk around the house tryin’ to fight mirrorsI can’t stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?I give a fuck, only thing I fear is HailieI’m afraid if I close my eyes I might see her, shit
I’m going through changesI’m going through changes
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin’ at noonYeah, dad’s in a bad mood, he’s always snappin’ at youMarshall, what happened at you? Can’t stop with these pillsAnd you’ve fallen off with your skillsAnd your own fans are laughin’ at youIt become a problem you’re too pussy to tackle, get upBe a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handledKnow you just had your heart ripped out and crushedThey say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bust
Nah, it ain’t like Doody to do thatHe wouldn’t fuckin’ shoot at, nobody, he fights firstBut dwellin’ on it only makes the night worseNow I’m poppin’ Vic’s, perks and Methadone pillsYeah, ‘Em, tight verse, you killed itFuckin’ drug dealers hang around me like yes manAnd they gon’ do whatever I says when, I says itIt’s in their best interest to protect their investmentAnd I just lost my fuckin’ best friend, so fuck it, I guess then
I’m going through changes(Don’t know what I’m going through) I’m going through changes(But I just keep on going through changes)
My friends just can’t understand this new meThat’s understandable man but just think how bananasYou’d be, you’d be an animal too, if you were trappedIn this fame and caged in it like a zooAnd everybody’s lookin’ at you, what you want me to do?I’m startin’ to live like a recluse and the truth isFame startin’ to give me an excuse, to be at a all time lowI sit alone in my home theater, watchin’ the same damn DVDOf the first tour, the last tour, he was still alive
And it hurt sore, fast-forward, sleepin’ pills’ll make me feel alrightAnd if I’m still awake in the middle of the nightI just take a couple more, yeah, you’re motherfuckin’ rightI ain’t slowin’ down for no one, I am almost homeward-boundAlmost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, don’t look nowDaddy, don’t you die on me, daddy, better hold your groundFuck! Don’t I know the sound of that voiceYeah, baby, hold me down
I’m going through changes(Don’t know what I’m going through) I’m going through changes(But I just keep on going through changes)
Wake up in the hospitalFull of tubes, plus somehow I’m pullin’ throughSwear when I come back I’ma be bulletproofI’ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a fewFacts ’cause I may not get a chance again to say the truthShit it just hit me that what if I would notta made it through?I think about the things I would never got to say to youI’d never get to make it right, so here’s what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina tooI still love your mother, that’ll never changeThink about her every day, we just could never get it togetherHey, wish there was a better way, for me to say itBut I swear on everything, I’d do anything for her on any dayThere are just too many things to explain, when it rainsGuess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn’t any pain
But I can’t pretend there ain’t, I ain’t placin’ any blameI ain’t pointin’ fingers, heaven knows there never been a saintI know it just feels like we just pissed away our historyAnd just today, I looked at your picture, almost hate to sayI miss you self-consciously, wish it didn’t end this wayBut I just had to get away, don’t know whyI don’t know what else to say, I guess I’m
I’m going through changes(Don’t know what I’m going through) I’m going through changes(But I just keep on going through changes)